I dreamt of Thuy last night. Why, after all these years, does she still torment my subconscious? I really have to question myself. How can I long for someone that I never really knew?

She looked beautiful though. Same as always. Her eyes, her smile, it just melted my heart. And when she looked at me, there was love in her eyes. Real and longing. But I remember her telling me that we still couldn't be together. Even in my dreams she breaks my heart.

My cousin texted me the other day. He had proposed to his girlfriend the night before while vacationing in Hawaii. And though every bone in my body is happy for him, it only reminds me that I'm so much further behind. Around me, everyone is so successful in their lives, yet here I am, still alone. No one to share all my joys and no one to lean on in times of need. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just destined to be alone.

Just makes me more and more depressed.