So last Friday was Jen's last official day in the lab. I brought her some Klondike bars to surprise her since I found out she had a craving for them, and then I also got her a cake from Coldstone's as a little goodbye gift. At the end of the day, it was just me and her. I asked her what her plans for dinner were, hoping she would give me a sign that she wanted to go out, but alas, it was not to be. My heart just sank as I watched her walking out the door.

As I sat there alone at my desk, I wrote this passage on my Facebook. A sort of goodbye. Just like that, she was out of my life: ngày đầu gặp em, anh cũng không ngờ trong một thời gian ngắn, em có thể vào sâu trong lòng anh. bây giờ đến lúc cuối, em cũng phải ra đi, để anh ở lại cô đơn va buồn vì nhớ em. I drove around that night, just trying to clear my head but to no avail. I kept thinking of her. I keep missing her.

I've actually had the chance to see her a couple of times this week. Not for very long, and they're glances really. But when I do, I smile and my soul feels so lifted.

Besides those rare visits, this week has been pretty slow. I find myself missing her company in lab. She used to make me laugh. All summer, I had looked forward to my days, and I was never tired or bored. Now I'm endlessly tired and sleepy.

I don't how it really happened, but somewhere along the way this summer, I completely fell for her. Wholeheartedly and unconditionally. I had no intention of it, and despite all the walls that I built up over the years to protect myself, here I am. Defenseless. All my walls have come crashing down and there isn't anything that I wouldn't give to be with her. It aches. And it hurts.